Grief

Grief. It hits you in waves. One moment you are fine. The next you are a mess. You struggle to keep it together, even if you are trying SO hard to keep that smile on your face.

I have been faced with grief a lot the past four months. I have experienced three deaths of people close to me. I don’t know how to handle this. I’m not sure anyone knows how to handle this. But for someone who hasn’t had to face grief before it has been tough.

The first was a mentor. A doctor. He was one that was tough on his patients, but because he had to. Because he was a pain management doctor. Because patients didn’t like to hear that he wasn’t going to write them prescription medications for their pain. He was tragically taken from us, due to a patients hate toward him. It shook our community. It shook the practice. It shook me. I was supposed to be there that Wednesday shadowing another physician, but wasn’t due to him being on vacation and me preparing to come down to school the next day for athletic training.

A month or so later, another physician was taken from us. A heart attack. He was young. He left two young kids. He left a practice and a family that loved him dearly.

The most recent one has been the toughest as it is family. My grandmother went to the be lord a few weeks ago. As I prepare to fly back to England for a quick 72 hours to say my goodbyes, I struggle with the fact that she is gone. I want to call her and realize I can’t. I wan’t to hear her voice one last time and I won’t. I wanted to call her the Sunday after our last home game and tell her all about it, and I couldn’t. It’s moments like this I realize that she is gone, and the wave of emotions start. She was my last grandparent. And now she is gone to be with my Grandad.

Grief is hard. It come in waves. It hits you. You’re fine one moment and not so much the next. One thing I do know, is that all three of these people are with me as I continue my medical journey.

I am forever thankful for my school family, my family, and my athletic training family. The past four months have been grueling. I have not been me, but I am learning that it is OK to not be me through this. It’s all going to take time to heal.

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Round 1 of Exams– Check!

I can’t begin to explain how crazy my life has recently been! We are on a three-week home game stretch which has turned out to be more insane then I thought! We are currently 4-1 which is super exciting! Fingers crossed for the rest of the season!

I asked my Instagram followers what they wanted to hear about and I had a big request for how my first round of exams went/ what I do to prepare (especially for chemistry)!

In short, most of them went well whilst a few could have gone better. I am loving my Gerontology class and did really well on that exam. In addition, I love my Health Policy classes and did really well on those! Organic Chemistry went OK, but could have gone better along with Global Diseases. For most of my exams, I start studying a week in advance. It may be a crazy way to do it, but it helps me to spread everything out.

So, this year I have Organic exams on a Wednesday night so the studying starts the Wednesday before the exam. This exam covered three chapters, therefore my days were divided reviewing these three chapter, reviewing homework, and doing practice exams.

Day What I Do
Wednesday Review chapter 1 material and homework.
Thursday Review chapter 1 material and homework.
Friday  Wrap up chapter 1 and being chapter 2 material and homework.
Saturday Review chapter 2 material and homework.
Sunday Wrap up chapter 2 material and homework and begin chapter 3 material and homework.
Monday Today we finished Chapter 3 material. For studying, I finish reviewing/learning the material learned today. In addition, I take about two practice exams to see where I stand.
Tuesday I take about 2-4 more practice exams depending on what I am struggling with. If I see a frequently missed concept/topic with all my practice exams, I go back and review that topic with more practice problems.
Wednesday Test Day at 8pm!

I do a quick review of the notes and call it done. What you don’t know, you don’t know at this point. I find it easier to lay low and breathe a little!

I had football practice 3-6 and did not stay any longer. This gave me a few hours to eat, relax, and make it to my testing location!

Post exam I go back to my room, shower, and go right to bed! I don’t like to think about the exam or what the outcome may be! It’s turned in at this point and there is nothing more I can do but wait!

It’s important that you find what is right for you! For Organic, I transfer my notes into a notebook, where everything is color coded. For Gerontology, I type notes in class and out of class from the book. I then make note cards with potential questions, definitions, and important details to test myself. One thing I do NOT do, however, is re-watch lectures. The only reason I go back is if I missed a topic. If I don’t understand it, I would prefer to sit down with my Professor and have them re-teach it to me in person, because typically it means I did not understand how they worded it the first time. Don’t be afraid to tell your professor you don’t understand. Most are more than happy to explain in a different way if you ask! Some YouTube channels are really helpful as well.

I hope exams went well for you! Are you ready for round 2?

A Boat, a Star, and a Wave

Maybe it is the fact that school has started. Maybe it is the fact that I’m struggling with the loss of someone I cared so deeply about. Maybe it is the fact that I am now juggling an in-season football schedule and trying to meet up with the demand of my players. Maybe it is the fact that I am trying to do my best for everyone else. Maybe it is because I struggle to put me first.

Oh yes. There’s a lot of maybe’s and I wish I could sit here and tell you which “maybe” category I fit into. There’s many exciting things that come along with being a pre-med student and a student athletic trainer, but we can be real. There are a lot of stressful things that come a long with them. I remember last year, being a Freshman, I was left to juggle how I was going to survive general chemistry, biology, shadowing, volunteering, and my other classes in just a 24 hour time period. Now this year I am juggling organic chemistry, my 500 other classes, and being a student athletic trainer. I love every second of it, but it’s days like today that I am struggling. I’m struggling to keep that smiling face. Struggling to understand how I am going to make it. Struggling with 800 different emotions.

When a boat comes at the time of a storm, do we hop on it or do we let if float by? When we see a shooting star, do we wish upon it, or let it go by? When life hits us like a wave do we go surfing or do we drown?

I’m choosing to take the boat, wish upon the star, and surf the waves.

What are you choosing?

Camp is Done!!

Guys!! Camp is done!! I survived 3.5 long weeks of taping, treatments, practices, men, and smelly feet!! *Does a dance party* The last 3.5 weeks have taught me a lot. Not only about the new machines, taping, and the athletes, but about myself.

I learned that I am stronger then I believe I am. Smarter then I think I am. But most importantly, that I love medicine and helping others.

So what has the last 3.5 weeks entailed you may ask? Well… I have met 9 other Student Athletic Trainers who are amazing. They make me laugh and go crazy, but are fun to work with. There is only two of us girls, so we have to stick together with all these men! I have two amazing GA’s (Graduate Assistants) who have been nothing but funny, caring, and welcomed us all with open arms. Most importantly, we have an amazing Assistant Football Trainer who has helped me out a lot. I couldn’t be more thankful. I’ve learned how to use 500 (OK, a little exaggerated) machines like GameReady, Normatec, BioWave, Stim, and Ultrasound. I have used/ they have been used on me these machines in the past, but using them on a regular basis has been fun! I have learned how to use plastic wrap to wrap ice bags on, make the perfect ice bag, and fight with athletes to ice their sore knees, feet, shoulders, and fingers! I have learned multiple taping jobs, got to tape many of my players, and have had many players come back to me to be taped. (Which is the best feeling) I have come close to 14 guys which I call “my guys” (I oversee the Wide Receivers for my team). I continue to have daily arguments with them that hydrating is one of the best things they can do for their body. (And by hydrating, I mean hydrating with the right stuff!!!) I have met two amazing coaches who have welcomed me to the group with open arms (WR’s coach, and his Quality Control Coach). I continue to meet people who amaze me everyday.

So where do we go from here? Well season is almost upon us! We have 10 more days until our first game, which is away so I will not be working that game (I get to go to one away game which is in November). In the meantime we have a set schedule of when I am at the facility. It is going to be crazy, especially since classes start TOMORROW!!

WHAT!?! I know, crazy. I can barely handle the thought myself. The past 3.5 weeks of camp it has been hard to remember what day, let alone timezone we are on so this should be an interesting start to the year! I am excited to see what Sophomore year brings as a Pre-Med student! I have got some BIG classes this semester and I am SO excited to share what happens with you all!

How many of you have/ will be starting classes soon? Are there any you are excited for? Nervous for?

We are going to ROCK this school year!

Choosing Faith Over Fear

My week is about to get a WHOLE lot crazy starting in 3, 2, 1… I arrived on campus Friday morning to start my Student Athletic Training journey and it has been non-stop crazy. We have been learning A LOT. I’ve been practicing my taping skills like crazy and learning 500 new machines. (I keep thinking how crazy the technology we have in our healthcare system!) My first day with my players is tomorrow, so fingers crossed that everything goes well… and not south. I’ve heard it can go from 1 to 100 very fast!!

Throughout this process I have been so fearful. Feared that I will not get along with the other trainers. Feared that the players won’t like me. Feared that the players won’t want a girl doing their treatment. This fear has been settling with me for months now. Fear can be debilitating. It’s like a piece of paper. It can go from being perfect with no creases to being crumbled and unusable in the snap of a finger. This past weekend it hit me. I am going to have to choose FAITH over FEAR. Fear is only going to hold me back more and if I keep looking at the what-if’s it is only going to hold me back more.

So for now, I choose to be fearless and faithful. I trust that everything will work out and that my athletes will like me, I will get a long with my other trainers, and that everything will work out as planned.

I hope you choose to be faithful and fearless with me! 🙂

Welcome to Injuries to M.D.!

Welcome! I am so glad you stopped by to Injuries to M.D.! My name is Lucy and I am a rising sophomore studying Human Health Sciences with a pre-medical focus! I am interested in Orthopaedic surgery, but that could always change! I am starting a new journey of becoming a Student Athletic Trainer at my college! I hope that I am able to share with you my pre-medical journey to medical school and my athletic training journey including the good, the bad, and the ugly!

The name, Injuries to M.D., came about from my past. I have had 4 knee surgeries and a wrist surgery all within the last 5 years. It was during this period that I decided that I may have a “calling” for medicine and started shadowing in Pediatrics, and Orthopaedic surgery. (And fell in love with the surgery side!) Over the years I have also shadowed in Emergency Medicine, General Surgery, and Physical Therapy. Throughout my journey I hope to be able to share these experiences with you!

A few fun things about me: I LOVE food (who doesn’t?!). I have a bigger love for chocolate. I love to travel. I love the color pink. I play golf. I love sports (including football and basketball). I’m easily injured. 😉

I’m excited to start this crazy journey with you all! Feel free to comment, email me (injuriestomd@gmail.com), and follow me on Instagram! (More social media sites to come!) I would LOVE to hear from you!